Is it just me, but don’t you just love when people spill your secrets? when you become an object of gossip? when your confidence is betrayed?
I consider myself a good judge of character- usually able to accurately tell whether or not I can trust someone- and I’ve never been wrong to tell a friend a secret, never been truly betrayed… until today.
There is a freshman that I know, Brian, who likes me, or liked me, whom I trusted. I trusted this kid like I would my best friend, because I just felt like I could. I talked to him for long hours into the night, lasting till one am, two am, or even three. I’m a person such that when you hit one am, I say things I mean, but don’t necessarily mean to say. This can create some very amusing conversations, but also some very revealing ones. During one said conversation I told Brian the story of what happened with Ryan- a story only Roomie, and my best friend Jessica know. I don’t know how the subject came up, or why it did, but it did and I held him in the strictest confidence, convinced that he wouldn’t tell a soul; oh how very wrong I was.
Maybe it was because I was extremely flirty with him, or that it seemed like I liked him when it turns out in reality he’s only just a friend, but for some reason or another Brian talked; he did more than talk. He typed.
On the new facebook polling feature, he made a poll which said, should xmakemedreamx (actually my name) date Brian (insert last name)?
The options were as follows:
No, She should date Ryan
When I saw that I wanted to punch him, kick him, curse him out, and I don’t get mad- in fact, it takes a whole hell of a lot to get me pissed off, while right now I’m still fuming about it. Ryan isn’t the type of person you play childish, immature middle school games with; he isn’t the type of person that would take lightly to this, and frankly, I’m not either. Sometimes I can be immature, but I never ever betray my friends’ confidence. I never tell a secret I’m sworn not to; granted, if you don’t swear me to something I might tell Roomie or Jess, but besides that, no one. And here’s Brian blasting whom I like around the internet, around facebook where the world can see. Thanks bud, I appreciate it.
Maybe it’s just naivety, maybe it’s just an unrelenting hope in humanity, but for some reason I wish that others would do the same and not bitchily bash others.
Even though I hold this hope, I still trust very few; I still tell very few people the truth, and people wonder why? Brian is a Class A example.